I have long given up counting unhatched chickens but am not averse to looking forward with hope and longing. And I love that we have a do-over every three hundred and sixty-some-odd days.
This year, I’m hoping and longing for spiritual and physical sanity.
By middle age, we seem to be stuck in some patterns and fully comfortable with things that do us no good whatsoever. Two things are grating on me just now.
First, I’ve got caught up, both spiritually and physically, in the peripheral stuff – the issues and arguments and theories and research. That’s all fine except that I can let a good bout of “car crash christianity” (see previous post), or a few articles about intermittent fasting distract me from the things that will actually make a difference to my life.
Second, this lack of doing almost always leads to the guilt that goes nowhere. You’d think I’d have learned by now that feeling guilty about how much I weigh or how little I pray or read the bible makes me neither lighter nor closer to God. In fact, it makes me more likely to head for the wine bottle (literally) or the wishing well (metaphorically).
With all that in mind, I’ve come to the mature conclusion that it’s better to embark on something new and different and risk failure than to keep doing what I always do and guarantee failure. So – in that spirit and for the rest of 2013:
- I’m going to listen to the bible this year and not even think about reading it. I’m starting with Romans because I want to know what stands out when I hear rather than read those texts. I want to get even a tiny inkling of what it was like to be with those early believers hearing the wisdom of their elders read aloud from a letter. I’m going to let the difficult bits wash over me and through me and listen for what matters.
- If you’re already embracing physical sanity then you won’t understand the following but here goes: I’m going to be happy with my physical self. Period. I’m going to stand way back from the mirror, buy clothes that I love, move and eat because I like to move and eat – not because I’m trying to meet some unrealistic expectation set by myself or anyone else. I’m going to remove myself as far as possible from the diet and exercise industries and use my hard-earned wisdom to stay fit and healthy.
So here’s to risking failure, making mistakes and seeking God. Happy 2013.